My week’s been Project Elise week. Last training session Michelle got into me, asking me all the questions. Hopefully I answered enough of them last training session to avoid it next training session. I just want to train - I don’t really want the spotlight and to answer all the questions! I think it makes you a better person as well. I have to realise a few things, get a bit more positive about myself.

It’s been such a hectic week; we’re all a bit exhausted. Weigh-in’s coming up and we’re all worried we haven’t done enough but I don’t know how we would have been able to do any more.

I’ve got to try and take the most from it and become a better person because of it because it would be so easy to just escape and want to go home. Although I want to go home and see all my family and friends, I know I’ve still got a lot more to do here. I’ve got a lot more weight to lose so I have to get re-motivated and keep on going and take what I’ve learnt from my experience and put it into practice.

It’s just been an emotionally and physically draining week. And the 10km was so hot! Just having to run in that seemed impossible. Everyone did so well.

I’m just exhausted. I’ve been having this ghost or something in my room and every night it taps me on the shoulder and I wake up. Once I wake up I can’t get back to sleep because I just overthink it - ‘What was that?’ It’s weird. Last night I moved my bed into the middle of the room because I thought maybe I’m in their corner or something! And apparently it bothered Caitlin, who shares the room with me, so it just looked for someone else.

It’s weird, it’s scary, but hopefully tonight I can just sleep and ignore it. I think I ignored it the other night and then it got more forceful with its taps, enough to wake me up! I don’t know what it wants - I can’t hear you or anything so I can’t do anything, sorry! I have to have a séance or something on the weekend, see what’s happening, ha! Hopefully we just don’t awaken them all and have a room full of them!

Everyone’s still been getting along really well but I think we’re all getting a bit sick of each other because you’re constantly surrounded by everybody and just want to get away and have time for yourself or just get out of the house and do something fun, like go to the movies or go bowling – something that’s a novelty just to break it up a bit.

Hopefully next week’s going to be a better week and hopefully I’m here next week. I know I’ll continue this on the outside because I don’t want to put the weight back on and I want to lose even more weight, but it’s hard to be really positive about it when this week’s just been really difficult to process.

We’ll see what happens. Hopefully Teneale and I will still be here because of the results on the scales. Hopefully I lose enough so I’m in my 80s! I’m sure I’ll get there; we’ll just wait and see.

Bye,

Elise